Time to smile and pretend, talk to me tomorrow and I'll be myself again...

There's no photo to update this time... Not yet at least, I believe the next may actually be a self-portrait even though I have no idea what that'll accomplish.. For as long as I can remember I was suppose to make my art for someone and it was suppose to be and mean something to someone other than myself. Of course if a person is paying for it, it is the way it works and is expected to work- it's the exact definition of being an illustrator these days. However not too long ago my personal artwork was criticized for being too 'dark'... and at the time made no sense to anyone because how can a person's work be so dark when they normally have such a cheerful and pleasant disposition? What if it's the art that keeps my disposition that way in the first place? Without that outlet no one would see the same person they do on a daily basis. It is my balance. Not understanding where it comes from and why it's needed is no one else's responsibility, as it shouldn't be, because well, the art is the dark parts they're suppose to see; everything else gets worked out through them, I guess.

Apparently I should draw or at the least write more often then I do. I should have a dream journal, the crazy images and thoughts that I come up with need to be recorded if for no other reason then just to release them into a different space other than my head.